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| A letter written by me on February 11, 2008 it was a personal testimony I wanted to share
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Pastor Kevin,I was just listening to your message atmosphere of increase and God lead me to share my testimony with you, and I would like for you to share it with your local body there at Harvest.?I wanted to ask Stephanie to share this, but I knew she wouldn't being so shy....?I am a knowledge and wisdom kind of person...... or I have been in the past!?Stephanie, while going to Harvest has been trying to teach me?about faith, healing, and that we serve a living God.?I have resisted her teachings, trying to inform her that God just chooses for the most part to not heal these days.?Trying to convince her that our sickness is just the way God uses to punish or teach us something.??
It was like a tug-a-war between her and me, but she never wavered in her faith.?She knew that God would show up, to lead me into His truth, but she just didn't know when.?It was?about April I gave in and said to her, ok?I will do it your?way and we will see what happens.?That month?my half?brother comes into town and stays with me, while he is getting his?CDL (license) ?he ask me to take him to his half sister's house (Ruth) to talk to her husband about going with him to take the test, and when we get there, we find out that Ruth is dying, stage 4 cancer.?She had been through chemo and radiation.?There was no help, the doctor even told her husband to purchase some illegal drugs to ease the nausea and help with the pain.?She had been in that bed for 21 days.?I heard God speak to me and say, but there is help, there is ME.?So being the good Christian I am, I tried to push it off on someone else, I asked has anyone been here to pray for you Ruth, and she answered no.?I said that's sad!??
I went home that night and prayed for her but this 85 lbs woman would not leave my spirit.?That next morning my brother asked me to take him to an 18 wheeler to study the parts, and I agreed, on one condition.?That we go to Ruth's house so I could lay hands on her and pray for her.?I told my brother (whom refuses to surrender to Christ!)that God wanted me to lay my hands on her because He wants to heal her.?My brother said OK, no problem.?We went there as planned but I chickened out!?I just couldn't do it.??
I went outside that trailer and called Stephanie, and her sister Jennifer (my prayer partners) ?I was crying, I told her I can't do this!?I told her, there are 7 people in there and I don't even know if they believe in God, much less miracles.?I?asked her,?"Stephanie?why can't I just lay hands on this trailer and pray for her,?God will?understand, right?"??Stephanie's reply was,?"Kristy, did?God tell you to lay hands on her and pray for?her?"I said, yes!And then?Stephanie said, "Are you a vessel for God or not?"?I said, yes.?Then she asked?me, "Does a?vessel have a brain?"?I said, no.?Then she said, "Then why are you letting your brain get in the way of what God is trying to do?!"?She was right, we are mere vessels.?The bigger the vessel the more the Kingdom of God flows through us and deposits on earth.?Lay your hands on the trailer, and the grass would have grown, where I was standing...... but Lay your hands on Ruth and God will Heal...Just dont think and be obedient to God.the more?He stretches me the bigger his vessel will be to pour him out.I walked in that trailer and into Ruth's bedroom, and looked at the people surrounding Ruth's bed and said, I am going to pray for Ruth right now, and if there is anyone here that doesn't believe in the miracle power of our Lord Jesus Christ, I ask you to leave the room.? |
| I walked in that trailer and into Ruth's bedroom, and looked at the people surrounding Ruth's bed and said, I am going to pray for Ruth right now, and if there is anyone here that doesn't believe in the miracle power of our Lord Jesus Christ, I ask you to leave the room.?Everyone left that room like just mentioning His name was?a contagious...?So everyone left?but her sister, who by this time?was filled with tears.??
I sat on the bed and looked in Ruth's eyes.?I asked her do you believe that God wants to heal you??She said, I don't know, I have done some bad things maybe this is payback.?I was so hurt and angry by her answer.??The devil is a liar!??I climbed over the top of her and put my hands around her head.?I picked up her head and with my head touching hers, and tears falling from my face, I binded that spirit of lies and cancer in Jesus name.?I told her this is not penance that you have to pay for your sins, satan is a liar!?Jesus already paid that price for our sins.He was wounded for our transgressions and bruised for our iniquities, all you have to do is cry out now and say, I believe and receive in Jesus name.?She did.Praise God she did.?I felt really God that I was obedient, but I didn't see anything really happen, except for alot of tears from Ruth and myself.A month later my dad leg was amputated, I was lost there again in the faith issue, plus my marriage was had hit rock bottom and I almost completely walked away from God.?I became bitter but tried to hide it, but because of this amputation?I had to spend alot of time helping my daddy.?There were alot of unresolved issues from our past, scars, which God?needed to heal.?During this time was?a really trying time for me.?I have never really been angry at God but I was now.?I have had to walk down a very hard road and I have Sacraficed alot for this walk and during this time I?REALLY wanted to throw it all away.??
On December 11th my daddy died.?Seven months after the amputation, once again lost, because of the grief, I wasn't able to see the big picture, receive knowledge and wisdom on this whole thing.(Until later)January 3rd 2008 I get a call from my brother who is in town again and he is gibbering about something, and then God gives me a word of knowledge and I knew Ruth was healed....I dropped to my knees, crying like it was a death of some sort.?I just knew!!!its not about me having all the answers.... or having the wisdom and knowledge of God to explain, all the unexplainable things....?
God's gift to me is like a word of a sentence.?but it can only run behind faith....FAITH IN A LIVING GOD THIS IS ALIVE!!!!?I have learned that the Holy Spirit ~used to be a?Spirit without a body, but after Christ?was risen, He gave Him a Body....US!!!!!???
GOD IS SO GOOD TO US!!!!?I forgot to tell you that the Dr said there is no cancer ...None!!!?that huge hardened cyst that was the size of a basketball is now the size of a baseball and it is soft.The cancer Dr said after extensive test, he can only conclude that it is water and benign.?Did you hear that Water....like living waters that flows within us!!!!The Dr. said that He just don't understand.God gave me a word this week,?He told me, "Kristy, even when you doubted, I WAS, I AM, ALWAYS ON DUTY!" |
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